} Still Waiting.

♥ Saturday, August 15, 2009

i'm sick...
and all i can think of is you..
nothing anyone said would have made a difference..
but you will...
cos you are not juz an ordinary fren..
you are more than that..
much more..
you are a special someone to me..
someone that i love and need th most..
i lie on my bed..
waiting for your call..
but it never came..
i refused to let go of my phone..
for i was scared if you called i couldnt pick up...
i brought it everywhere i went..
held it tight in my sleep..
everytime it vibrated..
i jumped up and hoped it was you..
but it never was..
after few hours..
i gave up...
i put my phone aside and went to sleep..
but i couldnt..
i would wake up every now and then to check my phone for missed calls...
but there were none..
i cried..
but wad's th point..
i went back to sleep..
gave up all hope..
until my phone vibrated numorous times..
it was a call..
but i knew it wouldnt be you.. somehow..
but i really hoped it was..
i ran to get my phone..
it really wasnt you...
i cried once again..
i was so determined to reach out for that thing..
that thing i havent used for a long time...
but i remembered wad i promised everyone..
wad i promised you..
i dun hate you..
juz utterly disappointed..
i know i can no longer ask so much from you..
since we are juz frenz now..
but i really hoped you would call..
i kept thinking of you th whole dae..
hoping things will go back to how it was..
but it was impossible..
everything has changed now..
from love to frenship..
juz because of a single choice..
i hoped you din make that choice..
but you already did..
im sure i wouldnt have chose that...
for i will never risk losing you..
not for a single moment..
i cant force you to choose me...
i wun make things difficult for you..
2 months..
i will just have to wait..
i will wait..
for i love you juz too much..
for i am nothing without you..
for you mean to much to me..
i will wait...
but i dunno how long............

you dunno important you are to me...

♥HeartBroken @

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